WTF Just Happened......
Buckle up - pretty sure this could be an epic biopic about wtf just happened to me - to the world - to my world.....this is purely my personal experience - my business and professional life is a complete other saga!
Professionally speaking - I thrived amidst this disaster, I relished the challenge, rallied the troops and charged forward. I imagine I'm the one in war time that is reaching out my hand pulling people out of the trenches - or telling them to run for their lives!! Romantic scenario, seeing as I have no actual experience in battle - and would probably shit my pants and cry for my Mum.....
Personally however - I was a fucking wreck. Everything I worked for, what I got out of bed for in the morning, my social life, my routine, my structure, my habits.....ALL FUCKING GONE!! I know I wasn't alone, this was all of us, sinking in this shit together. So I sunk myself into work, (I'm a self confessed workaholic), so it was the distraction I needed. But its never the distraction my marriage needs....my work habits are our biggest sticking point.
So then sets into motion a complete lack of structure, we ate breadsticks dunked in nutella for dinner, pizza and fish & chips every other night, whilst we firmly planted ourselves on the couch (Ade gamed or watched TV while I worked - desperately trying to salvage an income, and that of our two coaches). Most days were a blur - I furthered my studies, checked in on our members, and just continued to drown in my work. I didn't go for walks on the beach, I didn't meditate everyday, or find some great hobby.....yeah I probably should have done all these things - but hey-ho. This period goes on for about 4 weeks....a never ending sea of nutella (I don't even like nutella that much!).
Then, that's it I'm done....and do you know what I do - I GET A FUCKING COACH!!!!
Because I know the importance of one - because I am one!! I get help with a training plan and schedule - to get the results I want, doing exercise I want to do, and that I enjoy. I get help with my nutrition, I start meal prepping and eating well.....and guess what BOOM - I have energy, my body feels strong, I feel healthy, I have motivation, I feel like me again!!! I already KNOW all of these things (its what I do for a living!) - and so do most of you - I know I need to watch what I eat, train a few times a week blah blah...does it mean that I do it alll of the time...NO!
Because I'm just like you - I need accountability - I need someone on my ass making sure I'm doing what I'm sposed to be doing, so I get the results I want. I'm highly motivated, so I don't need someone constantly hovering over me, but I like direction, and I LOVE seeing progress. I love structure and a plan - most humans do, we thrive on routine and often feel lost and helpless without it.
So there's my quarantine diaries....a downward spiral of couch love, in a haze of Nutella, whilst being blinded by my computer screen till all hours of the night. Then came my phoenix moment - and just like that while I pondered my uncertain future - I rose from the ashes of my pitiful chubby quarantined body, and remembered who I was. My focus, determination and mindset has never been stronger, what I get out of bed for every morning, what I train for, why I chose to nourish my body instead of punish it.....because these are the things I can control....in all this chaos these are the things I could chose to make better, make better choices and decide for myself to be the person I want to be.
So here I am today, a better stronger version of me, all thanks to quarantine....